Not sure if anyone else ie female has this issue but I am trying to find different ways to get this resolved and I cant, I am almost giving up!
My partner is 44 this year, I am 35. We live in his house, which he is trying to get in his name after almost 3 years when his ex left and he is paying off debts now to get this done, many arrears in his name and credit cards but with his bonus in April things are working out ok and will be paid off.
Since living with him its been a struggle because he wont get married until all his debts are cleared (his comment) and we are engaged and I would like to settle down as he knows and to have children which he wants as well. I am off the pill as we speak, to see how things go.
We both work full time, he travels with work daily, 2/3 hours in the car, he is in sales, I work from home, on TV, abroad and also own my own property which I rent out monthly. So things for myself are good workwise and for him also. I like to keep everything organised and try not to slip behind with things, I make sure his house is tidy, clean, washing done etc, but sometimes when I work 24/7 as well, I like to think we are sharing the responsibilities as we both work full time and this isnt my house but he always says treat it like its yours, which is fine. He comes in from the gym most night, 4/5 times a week dumps his things in the kitchen and puts those straight in the washing, which frustrates me as there are other things which need to go in as well, so ask him to put those upstairs. He says I only need to ask him once, I have done, never changes, then months later ask again…nothing changes!
So I ask him, (nicely) can you please, now and again help me with the washing, dishes, cleaning…he suddenly goes "I ALWAYS DO, I WILL DO IT THIS WEEKEND, I DO THE HOOVERING, BIN OUT ETC" now yes that is true when asked, but lately I feel bad as its only when I ask him too, and then we fall out, and he gets defensive, starts winding me up, makes me worse, then we dont speak for a day. I feel pathetic, weak and defenseless.
We use to have sex 3/4 times a week now lately I dont feel the passion and admitted this and he said "WELL NOW AFTER THIS ARGUEMENT WE WONT GET IT AT ALL NOW!"
He asks me not to do something I wont do it, then when I say, look you tell me to do something, I do it, he said "I AM ONLY JOKING?" of course this confuses me, so why say it?
He calls me weird, saying you will do this, you will do that, now its making me feel like a nag when I just want help as we dont have one unit we share everything together, and feel like we are 2 people renting not 2 people living together as he admits we dont eat together at night, nor do we have breakfast together in morning and in the evenings its gym for him and 2 nights a week I work til 12am. Most weekends we are together however, but I just wish we would do more, its more watching football, gym and routine at home, seriously I am bored and have mentioned lets do this, lets do that……!!
This morning, he cleans, he takes the bins out, does some washing and feeds the cat (Never does this when he gets up) and then shouts "DONE THE WASHING, FED THE CAT, DONE THE DISHES, HOUSE IS CLEAN" literally…!! so this happens and I feel guilty. (because I asked for help last night)
But I dont ask for praise when I do it, I just do it but he never notices when his bathroom is clean, or the dishes are done or the lounge is tidy? I know we are women and yes some men will say its our job lol but we discussed last night as he puts it "YOU ARE THE NEW WOMAN AND I AM THE TRADITIONAL MAN" so I think if this is the case, it wont ever work?
So now we arent talking, its got yet again to that stage. He always goes to bed at the same time 11pm and I feel I have to go as well at that time, because he gets up at 6.45am so its pressure to have sex, seriously I cant just get into it. Everything is routine. I try and be more exciting when I try he is either too tired or at work or just not into it. When he tries lately its not happening for me either.
So I have now given up….not like me at all but I have.
I sense we are drifting apart but the one thing is to communicate, I am trying but I get someone here who doesnt like to be told, does his own thing lives like a bachelor but is kind to me, then reverts back to his ways. I have said about doing something nice this weekend, he said, well its hard because rugby is on, so decided I will go away myself otherwise resentment sets in. He has booked us away on holiday in April my birthday present, to see his parents in Spain which is nice and a holiday at least!
Any suggestions, different way of talking? I admit to him that I am scared to bring anythnig up because I get this feeling he will over talk me or win the case, its true I cant talk to him, and then I literally end up with this feeling of hate for him, anger and want to walk out or leave him, yes its that bad!!
please help in de
First of all - that was a lot to read. However, I did read everything.
Secondly, your problem is really common. It happens every single day.
Thirdly, how you deal with everything going on right now will really tell you how your future with him will be.
Fourth, give him a time table that you expect changes by. You have your own place. You are independent. You are not married and can leave.
My husband is the same way.
He does NO housework.
His mother raised him that way.
When he married me, he expected me to do everything his mother did for him. So, I either do it or live in a dirty house.
When we have money, we hire a cleaning service once a week.
It sounds to me that you can easily afford cleaners once a week to help you around the house.
If he is not going to give at least 50 percent towards the house cleaning duties / chores (a house you pointed out belonged to his ex and him). However, you did not mention if you paid anything towards the household bills ? I would be concerned about that if I were you.
So my advice - either learn to live with a dirty house, hire a maid, or do everything yourself.
He will not change. Don’t expect him to.
If you are having these kinds of problems now - imagine what it would be like if you continued a relationship with him, without any changes ?
A future relationship (or more of a commitment like an engagement or marriage) will not make these "differences" go away.
So, think about that.
What helped us was marriage counseling (to learn to communicate better), individual counseling, patience, acceptance, and date night once a week. And, of course, weekly cleaners.
We work full time. He has his doctorate, I am working on mine. We don’t have time to do things together (just like you guys).
You really have to schedule time (for everything).
Remember, try to say something positive to him everyday. Give blessings for three things every day that hopped that made you feel better. Try meditation and positive affirmations.
If things continue to keep getting negative, and you keep getting frustrated, angry, depressed, etc., try individual counseling.
It will help you learn coping skills and help you decide what you need to do for your own happiness.
Peace.
PS
Remember, your problem is very common. It is the skills you learn to master and your ability to deal with these issues that will stand the test of time and enable you to move forward on a move positive wave length in your life.